I Have Cried A River Of Tears
Time seems to be rushing passed. Is it because I am now counting by weeks and months my quit smoking journey? Can you believe it’s been almost 3 months…WOW is all i can say, and I wish the last 3 months had of been not so emotional.
Someone was telling me that when you smoke and you are stressed with every drag of your cigarettes you are suppressing all the negative feelings.
Now normally I would say what a load of hogwash, but I am now starting to see that perhaps there is some truth in this as I have shed so many tears over the last 2 and a half months…Tears that fell without me having any control over them, any time of the day…or night.
What Do You Think I Could Have Done Differently?
I was angry this week as I found out I could have had another hypnosis session to help with my horrendous cravings and withdrawals, I cried as I thought about the recluse I had become in that first 6 weeks, a simple extra session may have had me dealing with these cravings so much better.
But you know what? It doesn’t matter, I dealt with it the best way I know how. Yes, it was a struggle, Yes it could have been easier, but I have just proven how strong I am, how strong I have become.
So Where To From Here?