I decided after writing my book ‘Blonde Roots’ that I needed to have a change… a change of scenery perhaps. The book had taken so much out of me. Even though it was cathartic to write my journey triumphing over sexual, physical and mental abuse, to be able to release the hurts and the pains I had kept in for many years, I some how felt a little empty inside… as if by releasing all my past hurt and all the pain should of made me feel more alive and free. Well it did, and I am so happy that I released all of those past hurts… I feel like a new woman. By letting go I learnt to love myself. A love I now want to share with others. The thing is not knowing where to from here. How does one fill the hole… Continue reading →
Just finished watching a movie, parts were sad… I cried and cried realising that I have been missing my Mum. I’ve been sucking it up, trying to be strong… to move on… I think I’m a little scared that if I allow myself to cry that I just might not stop… Like when I released all my hurt and pain when I wrote my autobiography… I cried a lot then too…
I feel peace within. I suppose it just all takes time.
Sometimes our lives feel like things are taking forever to happen, that we are on some roller coaster ride and it’s only the size of the rise and fall that changes. When things start to come together, as slow as it may seem we start to worry and stress, because it is not happening as fast as we want it to… wondering is it ever going to happen for me… Well I can tell you when things start to fall into place, when the decisions you have made even a while back start to come together… when you start to see change within yourself because of those choices, when your spirit sings with joy… it is the most amazing feeling ever. Thank you God for bringing me through this and all the amazing experiences along the way… now I know the next chapter is going to be so Amazing… Blessings and love to you all for being apart of my journey this far… Continue reading →
Well here I am to share with you the horrendous happenings with the floods in Bundaberg. The remainder of what was left from cyclone Ozwald has devastated the whole east coast of Australia. I feel for not only those who have lost everything in Bundaberg, but for all those people affected by these 2013 floods… Very sad indeed…
So now with the decision made to go out west to my sister and her hubby’s 20,000 acre cattle property, I had to equip myself with a vehicle that would go the long haul… plus the property is a little difficult to get into… no bitumen road once inside the property gate… and my Mazda 6 wasn’t going to cut it… in actual fact it would have got ruined.
So I bought myself a 4×4, a Nissan Patrol… never owned a four wheel drive before. I was so excited to be able to get a really nice Continue reading →
So here I am… the past few weeks have been a time of reflection for me. After the launch of my book I had, what I can only explain as adrenalin drop off. The past twelve months of writing and getting my book to publication was an emotional road. So what I felt and as I wrote in my last blog was that it left me with a hole right in the middle of my gut… not literally 🙂 but this gaping hole is there and it put me into a state of confusion… What do I do now? What is in store for me? Where do I want to be and What can I do to move forward… Continue reading →
When I was writing my book, there were so many emotions that came up… after not sharing my hurts and pain with others I found that keeping them all inside for so long, was not the best thing I could have done. I needed to share them and deal with them at the time…
I allowed the pain and hurt to surface, and then dealt with it somehow, and at the time… it was mostly tears… once the book (Blonde Roots) was released it was amazing how the weight lifted from my whole body… but now it seems I feel Continue reading →