So here I am… the past few weeks have been a time of reflection for me. After the launch of my book I had, what I can only explain as adrenalin drop off. The past twelve months of writing and getting my book to publication was an emotional road. So what I felt and as I wrote in my last blog was that it left me with a hole right in the middle of my gut… not literally 🙂 but this gaping hole is there and it put me into a state of confusion… What do I do now? What is in store for me? Where do I want to be and What can I do to move forward…
What I realised after spending time with self was that I have never taken time to just BE… yeah just be ME… it has felt that I was always being something for someone… not always bad or negative, but here I was totally lost at what it is I want to do… what is my purpose?… What are my passions in life? The person I was before writing the book is GONE, left inside my book ‘Blonde Roots’. So I am now different, changed from the experience and from the years of working on me… working through chronic pain, working through taking men out of my life so that I could work on me, the soul searching and the emotional releases I have experienced to find the Narelle that was meant for more has me right now at this point of making BIG DECISIONS.
I have tossed this idea in my head for some time, pushing it to the back as I chose to stay here doing what I thought I needed to be doing to help others. However, I can not sit with it any longer… I have cried, I have prayed, I have called out in confusion… WHAT!!!… I don’t understand… I felt frustrated, angry, sad… and many more emotions as my brain was in lock down, sifting through thoughts of the last few years, thinking of what I had endured to get here… right here where I felt little anymore. Questions flooded in and out of my confused brain, trying to fathom the impossible. What the heck was I going to do????
Well, it took a few weeks and the brain is now back to some sort of normally… (yeah, I hear you say… what is normal) but you know what I mean… so hear is the NEWS…
I am selling EVERYTHING… YES everything… my furniture, my beautiful car, my children… hahhaha, ok scrap the last one, but I think you get the idea. AND I am moving to Augathella… ok, ok… Augathella is approx 11hrs west of Brisbane. My two daughters Yolanda and Jannali are moving with me. Big Change… We are going to be living with my sister and her hubby on their 20,000 acre Cattle Property, 40 klms from the nearest town, 15 klms from the nearest neighbour… out in the BUSH.
I want to write more, I want to take you all with me as I blog about my new journey, the changes I will experience, the photos of some of the beautiful country, the how I’m coping living in the country with so much quietness.
I want to thank each and every one of you for being a big part of my journey so far, your love and support has helped me through many a dark day… my light is shining, but for the first time it is shining on ME…
Keep posted for my blogs and stories along the way by checking in at narellewarcon.com when you get a few minutes, and follow my journey 🙂
I will also be putting up a very AMAZING SPECIAL on my book, as I can’t take them all with me… so keep an eye out for the updates on that.
Blessings and love to you all.