Went for a walk along the beach with my youngest daughter and jazz the dog this afternoon, as we walked, all the footprints were there in front of us from those who have walked before us… we walked along trying to fit our feet into those footprints, our feet were either too big or too small, however it made me think about how often we try to follow in other peoples footprints in real life… This made me think about the decisions we make… do we follow those who have gone before us… Paved the way… It can make our lives easier… Or do we find our own way, paving our own footprints in the sand… This came up for me while talking with a dear friend and while I sit and ponder where my direction is, I know that my direction will open up to me, I will pave my own path when the time is right… For now I’m going to sit and enjoy the scenery and not put so much pressure on myself… And I’m ok with that…
I shouted myself some flowers… Beautiful Snapdragons and scented Stocks… Two of my mums favourite flowers
3 months since my mum passed away… Miss you so much
Sitting here drinking my tea this morning and thinking about the year so far… My family suffered in the terrible floods in Bundaberg, two of my nieces and their families still not back in there homes, my mum hospitalised and then having stents put in and after a fall on Good Friday passed away on the 19th April (miss you mum) me and my youngest daughter selling up most of our ‘stuff’ and making the move to the country… Big move… And now my daughter Yolanda finding out she is over half way through her pregnancy that she hadn’t even known about (happy 1st time grandma), and now moving again back to Brisbane to support my daughter and my soon to be grandchild.
Now one could be all sad and upset from all that is happening, and don’t get me wrong there have been many emotions released, however from each of these comes blessings, each of us learning more about what is important… ‘LOVE’
I am so thankful I was able to have my Mum in my life till she was 87. So grateful for the experiences in my life that bring change. My heart is full of love as I grow and gain strength from life itself. I am very blessed and wish you all love and blessings for being my family, my friends, for being apart of my journey. Much love to you all
Just finished watching a movie, parts were sad… I cried and cried realising that I have been missing my Mum. I’ve been sucking it up, trying to be strong… to move on… I think I’m a little scared that if I allow myself to cry that I just might not stop… Like when I released all my hurt and pain when I wrote my autobiography… I cried a lot then too…
I feel peace within. I suppose it just all takes time.
♥ ~ Gratitude is not a duty, but we simply can not resist it. The way we choose to perceive life makes all the difference. When we choose to see life as a gift – It Is. When we are grateful, we are alive. Gratitude opens the door to freedom. Being grateful is simple ~ ♥